Thursday, April 27, 2006

didnt go to skool todae..
having gastric in the morning.
of coz this is part of the reason for not going to skool..
yesterday happens too many things.
i don wish to face this problems todae.

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it's raining now.
and i am missing uu.
i tell myself i cant think of uu no more.
but i jus cant control.
am i realli thad stupid?
i keep on thinking thad uu still like her.
althought uu sae uu like me.
but uu never sae uu cant like others at the same time.
uu sae i doubt about ur feeling.
but have uu do somethin thad make me trust uu?
listening to meng fei chuan - bu zhi de.
everythin is like not worth it.
i am the onli one who like uu more.
realli don know wad to do anymore.

chibikazuko <3 chibidark

i'm posting again.
hmms..

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we don suit each other ?
we was like qurreling non-stop.
uu don understand me..
i like uu! i realli do..
y uu wanna sae i like atika?
i dont! she is my friend onli...
super duper sad..
everytime relationship thingy will happens when i was trying to concentrate.
uu tell me to trust uu thad uu realli like me..
uu r not showing wad uu r saying..
i feel insecure..
do uu know?
cry again.. super sad!
feel like killing myself..
don wanna think..
haiz.. ~
when i die.. will uu miss me?
i know uu wont.. uu will onli feel guilty~
uu don like me at all!!!!!!!!!

chibikazuko <3 chibidark

Wednesday, April 26, 2006

be ba boom!
get scolded by thad sam ba la jiao!
hello~ i am having a gastric..
fook uu!
i hate to see uu playing with her..
but i cannot do anythin..
uu r not mine..
i cant stop uu from doing wadever shit larhs..
1 more day.. and i think don have to wait until this day i also know wad's ur answer..
now i understand how much uu care and like me..
=')

chibikazuko <3 chibidark

hmms.. 2 more days. i wonder wad will happens larhss.
haiz..

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get to know lots of thingy..
yahs..
zx keep bad mouth me behind my back..
and he seems to be close to me when chatting with me..
well.. fine.. i don realli mind..
no matter wad ppl thinks or wad ppl look at me..
i don realli mind larhs..
hmms.. jus wonders y they keep on gossiping non-stop..
haiz..
she's online this few days..
get to know thad she argue with tika todae..
yahs.. we never chat much even online..
so.. hmms.. yahss...
damn boring everyday..
-_- argh~

chibikazuko <3 chibidark

Monday, April 24, 2006

and now wad?
11 feb 2006.
i don know who uu get to know..
thad someone is ur super duper lover..
fook!
so can i have a correct answer.. ?
do uu like me not?
haiz..! forget it larhs..
wanna cry again
3 days more..

chibikazuko <3 chibidark

Sunday, April 23, 2006

haiz..
my eyes keep on twitching..
and i know bad things gonna happens..
and it did..
haiz.. panadols wont kill even uu eaten the whole box..
i tried.. and i feel terrible..
cutting my hands again..
crying again..
it always end up like this..
am i wrong to sae i like uu?
and i fall for uu too deep..
4 more days to go.. i wonder if i will recieve wadever i wan to recieve..
everything always goes another way..

chibikazuko <3 chibidark

and i wanna die..
wad's the best way?

chibikazuko <3 chibidark

Saturday, April 22, 2006

5 more days..
i am waiting for ur msg..
yahs. will uu msg me?
haiz.. i already told myself.. if uu never msg me..
i will never msg uu anymore...
i got a feeling..
uu don like me at all..
maybe uu jus treat me as a friend..
but uu never notice it..
i been thinking alot lately..
and all this thinking makes me sad..
wad the fook..
tears jus cant stop flowing down..
haiz...

chibikazuko <3 chibidark

Friday, April 21, 2006

i tried not to msg uu anymore..
i wanna see if uu msg me..
uu r online..
i saw ur nick..
uu miss someone..
but i wonder who..
i don wanna ask..
coz i know uu will sae is me.
jus in order not to make me sad..
haiz.. so wad's all this about?
i jus wanna keep my mouth shut..
don wanna sae anything anymore..
i don wanna ask.. and i don wanna know..
everytime i have think stupid stuff..
argh.. i wan to forget..
i don wanna fall too deep..
haiz..

chibikazuko <3 chibidark

Wednesday, April 19, 2006

uu stopped replying my message..
forget it.
i think is over le larhs..
fuck!

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chibikazuko <3 chibidark

Tuesday, April 18, 2006

sux sux sux larhs!
fuck!!!!!!!!

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okies now wad? i don feel like chatting with her..
i msg her three times.. she didn't reply..
forget it..
give up larhs..
think too much also like this.. wad the fook!

chibikazuko <3 chibidark

Monday, April 17, 2006

it has end.. it's over.. okies.. i think so..

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yahss.. i jus wanna clear my mind..
wad uu sae.. cant be proved..
am i being toyed around by uu?
so uu afriad alot of ppl know..
okies.. i am so sorri for telling all this to my beloved friends..
so if uu like me.. uu afraid?
then uu shouldn't like me at all..
don let me fall too deep for uu please..
i don wanna cry..
i am controling..
HATE ALL THIS LARHSSSSS!

chibikazuko <3 chibidark

Sunday, April 16, 2006

my new hp.. yahs.. N3250.. okies. i love it.
thanks daddy! =3

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sunday morning.. i was super lazy..
decided to do my art.. in the end.
i never do..
yahss..
thad stupid phone can't message..
so irritating..
went to imm to check wad realli happens..
suddenly can msg.. so never mind le..
shop around imm with my daddy..
got back home and mum was screaming..
okies.. stop scolding daddy for buying me a new handphone...
always shouting.. -_-
ate alot todae.. bowls after bowls..
wad happens larhs? i was eating like as if i never eat before..
fatty le..
watching The Mummy now..
hmms... so gross..
hahas..

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i am losing confidence towards myself..
i don realli know if uu realli like me when uu sae uu do..
haiz.. forget it larhs..
don wanna think..
mum jus wanna play the com now.. hahas..

buiebuie -

chibikazuko <3 chibidark

Wednesday, April 12, 2006

damn moody todae..
i didn't wan to go to skool..
4 period of art.. it's so boring..
kaishi actually don wanna go too..
but farhanah is jus beside her larhs..
then she tell kaishi to go to skool..
so kaishi go lorr..
she sae farhanah tell me to go too..
then i also decided to go.. hahas~
yahs.. karyong birthday todae!
HAPPI BIRTHDAY DAY!
16 le worrs.. mature~
i was damn quiet todae?
usually i will turn back every time jus to see her larhs..
but todae i control myself..
i never tok to her the whole day.. jus walk pass her and ignore her..
saw somethin they makes me more irritating..
forget it.. i don wan to mention about it..
- yahs.. sorri hakim.. jus wanna to make sure who is the one who steal the phone..
i never sae it's uu.. it's jus suspecting~

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i try not to msg uu larhs..
but i can't..
wondering y am i always the one who msg uu first?
jus becoz i care for uu too much bahz..
yahs.. i don know if uu like me or uu treat me as true friend onli..
i realli confused larhs.. !
haiz..
always like this.. ='(

chibikazuko <3 chibidark

Monday, April 10, 2006

it's so fucking larhs todae..
NAFA test todae..
cyn lost her hp..
and i am so guilty..
she put my hp in her bag..
don know who is thad idiot who steal her phone..
hope thad person will fall down whenever he/she walks.

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it's sad enough already..
i don wish to cry anymore..
i thought if both of us like each other then there will onli be happiness..
yahs.. i know it's difficult to forget..
every sms we talk about will include her..
uu sae uu forget her..
uu sae uu treat her as friend..
uu sae it's nothin..
and jus becoz she sae tell uu to go to me..
and uu do..
wad's all this for?
i wan is a real heart..
uu sae uu don wan me to be heartbroken..
thanks for thad..
but.. if uu think i am pity so uu like me..
then i don realli wan thad..
so sorri..
i don wanna be sad anymore.. can i be cheerful always?
can i still smile?
it's realli difficult..
i am always pretending... ='(

chibikazuko <3 chibidark

Sunday, April 09, 2006

-8 april 2006

wake up at 7.00 and prepare to go to batam..
my mother is stupid fucking..
the clothes i wear isn't sexy..
she's just being old fashion..
i don wanna go larhs..
she is the one who force us to go..
fine!~
reach batam at 11am..
it's super hot can?
i was wearing a black jacket!
damn idiotic..
went to a temple..
i was praying hard for my mom and dad's health..
then went to have our lunch...
it's super... not nice..
i onli eat the sotong.. others.. it's like hell larhs..
went to lots of places..
some culture dance..
the person was eating.. fire balls? and glass!
it's scary larhs.. hahas..
all the trips is so boring!!!!!!!!
then we all is back !!! we loves the hotel.. super cool..
then have our dinner.. and bla bla..
then change into swimming costume.. and went to the pool..
my mom was damn funny.. laughs!
it's so tiring .. haiz.. after bathing.. and supper..
i was already lying in the bed..
missing her when i was there.. haiz.. cannot sms her.. so sianz =(

-9 april 2006

went for spa.. hahas.. at around 8.30am
i must be naked!!!!! hahas.. so paisei larhs..
and it's super pain.. hahas..
after the spa.. we went to shop..
and back to singapore...
hahas.. finally back home..
super tired now.. wanna slp.. nighttt!

chibikazuko <3 chibidark

Friday, April 07, 2006

don tell me uu like me..
when uu still can't forget her..
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yahs.. she's not in skool todae..
it's so boring..
alot of ppl get hand foot mouth!
wad the hell..
leeting suspected having this illness..
wish uu r alright..
okies.. i went home after skool..
i didn't go to art..
coz i miss uu.. so i wanna went home early to msg uu..
uu know thad i miss uu..
i know uu know thad..
uu make me happy for a moment when i sae i do miss uu..
then uu sae uu don wanna come to skool everyday so thad i will miss uu always..
uu know how happy i am?
i tell uu i like uu.. yahs..
now uu know..
uu ask me wad's karyong reaction when i told her i like uu..
i don know..
i feel like crying now..
i don wan to fall so deep for uu..
but wad i can do?
haiz.. y is my relationship always thad bad..
i know it's difficult to forget someone..
haiz.. okies... so regret for telling uu thad i like uu..
haiz.......................

chibikazuko <3 chibidark

Thursday, April 06, 2006

sports day todae! hahas.. so cool~
looking at other students who still need to go to school..
i feel so happi larhs..
no need to face the teacher and listen to them singing.. hahas..
but there's still skool tml..

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hachi san was not here todae..
yuki san.. don sad.. smile more =)
yahs... i saw her! super cute x3
when we stand up and sing mari kita..
i jus wanna take a look at her larhs..
then she was looking at me too..
at first i thought is bcoz she suddenly look until me..
but i think she was looking at karyong..
haiz.. karyong jus stand in front of me =(
back to our own houses..
damn hot.. thad stupid malay girl.. push my bag away..
jun hwee scolded her.. yahs.. thanks ferr everything! lols..
i keep on looking at her larhs..
*SMILE =D* she's so funny when raudhah spray the green spary on her head..
aww! so cute!
her turn to run.. damn cool!!!!!!
i ran all the way down to see her run..
there's a mess over there.. then everyone's blocking her..
yahs.. damn idiotic!
everything's over le.. yahs..
all of us walk out of the stadium..
she's at the MRT station there..
she push me larhs!
happi! hahas... yahs.. XD

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went for bowling... with ling yong. cyn. fatimah..
hahas.. i lost larhs! wad the hell! help them to keep their shoes..
humpf!
never mind.. lols..
then play play play..
after thad.. go home..
it's raining cats and d0gs..
hmms.. i am totally wet!
stuck in the lift too! damn it!
it's scary larhs!
yahs..

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i getting to dislike uu..
the way uu treat me.. yahs..
i don wanna fall for her too much too..
i afraid.. yahs..
althought she's the one make me forget uu...
but she doesn't love me too..
wad to do?
i jus have to remain like this..
i don wan to turn out even both of us cannot be friends..
haiz..

chibikazuko <3 chibidark

Wednesday, April 05, 2006

okies. i know i shouldn't say anythin bad about uu.. so sorri..

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things this few days r bad for me..
yahss.. i hate this life larhs..
jus wanna be happi and cheerful always..
but i think god jus don wan me to live to well?
hahas.. anyway.. i still have to go through my life..
yahs..
wad can i realli do?

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have i forgotten uu slowly?
i wish i can..
realli..
so thad i won be so stress.. yahss
feeling so stress this few days! argh!
good night larhs! =(

chibikazuko <3 chibidark

Monday, April 03, 2006

i fucking hate uu larhs!

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yahs.. i never like uu before.. never!
i hold her hand todae.. wha!!!!!
so xin fu larhs!
hahas..
english oral todae.. average..
but thad picture i sae until..
so lousy.. hahas..
so bored... !

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i miss uu! realli miss uu!
i don care wad others think..
haiz..! miss uu lotss!
sarang haeyo~

chibikazuko <3 chibidark